The Point of No Return
There is a moment in every project called "the point of no return". This is the moment when, once the cut is made or the paint applied, there is no going back. It's the moment when you have to decide to be all in. The moment of full commitment.
For me, this is the moment when I have to trust my abilities and my creative vision with my actions not just my words. It's when I say, "I not only believe that this project is going to look great but I also believe that I am capable of making it happen".
I haven't even started on the kitchen renovation yet, but I've already crossed the point of no return. I purchased two 8 feet slabs of unfinished butcher block. I bought the wood for an incredible price at a liquidation store, but an incredible price for that much quality hardwood is still a punch in the gut. And let me tell y'all, that shit is nonrefundable. Placing that order was me saying, "I am so confident that I am capable of installing my own counter tops that I am actually going to buy this thing".
The butcher block is not even in my house yet and there is no turning back. There is no changing my mind at this point. I am COMMITTED! And I'm terrified.
This is absolutely my biggest project so far...by a long shot! I only just started playing around with woodworking 6 months ago. I must be insane, right!? Ok, maybe I am a little insane. That one is definitely up in the air. But more importantly, I'm confident! I've done my research. I've got my tools and my supplies. And if things go south, I have friends I can call to help me out! I know I can do this. Down in my gut, I know this is possible for me.
That doesn't mean I'm not scared! I'm terrified I'm about to waste hundreds of dollars because I bit off more than I could chew! That's my biggest fear! But the belief that I have in myself is bigger. The voice that is saying, "Yes I can" is louder than the voice saying, "No I can't".
I believe in myself. I have a deep down, in my bones feeling that I can do this. No, I've never done this before. But I believe I can.